How to know you are ready for marriage. We were both in grad school, so not financially stable, but with flexible time on our hands. I want to be a mommy more than anything! Make having fun together a priority. You are being sucked up by his big black hole of lies and deceit that you can not think clearly. Therefore what a beautiful and godly thing Christian marriage is, a promise of lifelong fidelity and self-sacrifice. If you don't feel comfortable communicating with your spouse this could be a sign that you feel a lack of trust in your spouse. We will both be much happier when we are able to make this change. I felt there must be something wrong with me, especially when all my female friends, co-workers and family of the same age are having babies. I still continue to grow in my life each day instead of falling behind or staying still for long periods of time. She refused to take my call. Name required. Articulate your needs.